My mother is in town and brought 20 ziploc bags, all filled with sugar products. On top of this, I get to listen to her complain about how fat and unattractive she is...as she eats all this food.
The idiot at Barnes & Noble would not let me pay for my CD at the front of the store and chased me half way down the store to tell me I had to return to the back of the store.
The people at my flexspending company refuse to say "May I help you?" They answer the phone and say, "Thank you for calling, this call may be monitored, I'm Jesse..." and then dead silence. I hate that. It bugs me.
There's a lady at my first job who keeps leaving her teenage son sitting in the lobby while she works out and he's mentally challenged and keeps following me around while I'm trying to work, asking me questions I don't have the answers to.
My ex-husband is an idiot.
My kid whines a lot and her best friend is in town, staying with us part of the week and that girl is super pushy.
The stuff that is just a blip on the radar is throwing me all out of whack yesterday and today. And I know why. It's that stupid commitment I made and the actions I am not taking because the actions in question do not follow my path laid out by the Universe.
So the idea that I would wake up the next day, feeling proud of myself, feeling stronger and more confident in my choices? Yeah, bullshit. I am really resentful at the Universe and since I have no idea how to rail against the Universe, I am going to get pissy and bitter at everything around me. The stuff that usually doesn't phase me at all.
3 more days and this God forsaken year will be over.
But I'm upright and breathing and I'm thankful for that. The other stuff will pass. I can't let the resentments, which will pop up every day of my life in one form or another, throw me off course. I am strong, I am invincible, (I think you know where I'm going with this...)
By the way, according to Google, the picture on this post is the Chinese symbol for moron. That was one of the first things that made me smile today.
Yes, only a few more days and '09 will be in the past. I want to make '10 a better year and try not to really worry about stuff as much as I used to. The 'Serenity Prayer' is old hat and does nothing for me.
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